Sunday, June 10, 2012
Friday, December 23, 2011
We Got Sponsored!!
Day 145
Yes you heard it right people!! The Push Back Project has now been sponsored!! Gyro Gyro, a Greek restaurant, has stepped up to the plate and sponsored us. Make sure to get on over to their website, check out the menu, drop in, and find something to eat one day! Our t-shirts will be there soon, so keep a look out for that too!
http://www.gyro-gyro.com/
Now, as far as that talent agency goes... The appointment kept getting rescheduled, and other things kept happening, so basically...it never happened. No worries though. Time will show whats in the future. :D
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http://www.gyro-gyro.com/
Now, as far as that talent agency goes... The appointment kept getting rescheduled, and other things kept happening, so basically...it never happened. No worries though. Time will show whats in the future. :D
Please check out The Push Back Project on twitter @ PushBackProject
and please like our Facebook page The Push Back Project
Thursday, December 15, 2011
The Push Back Project
Day 137
So things have been moving quite well for me lately in both the acting world and the anti bullying world. Lets begin with the bullying world. So my friend Taylor and I recently both decided to take the fight against bullying to a whole new level. We are both working together to start a non for profit organization called The Push Back Project. Today we met up and talked about specifics. We also contacted Q100 and asked them to join us. Then, we did something that I thought I wouldn't do for a while. We both went to Dunwoody High School, (my old school), and we talked to the principal there about getting them in on our program. Things went well because we are meeting him for an official meeting on the second of January.
In the acting world, the news is this... I will be meeting with a talent agency tomorrow at 1pm. YAY! Hopefully things go well with that. I am going to try and get a commercial or something tv related going soon. Anyways, I will update you guys tomorrow on what happens!
So things have been moving quite well for me lately in both the acting world and the anti bullying world. Lets begin with the bullying world. So my friend Taylor and I recently both decided to take the fight against bullying to a whole new level. We are both working together to start a non for profit organization called The Push Back Project. Today we met up and talked about specifics. We also contacted Q100 and asked them to join us. Then, we did something that I thought I wouldn't do for a while. We both went to Dunwoody High School, (my old school), and we talked to the principal there about getting them in on our program. Things went well because we are meeting him for an official meeting on the second of January.
In the acting world, the news is this... I will be meeting with a talent agency tomorrow at 1pm. YAY! Hopefully things go well with that. I am going to try and get a commercial or something tv related going soon. Anyways, I will update you guys tomorrow on what happens!
Saturday, December 3, 2011
So sorry that it has been a month!!
Day 125
Hey guys! First off I wanted to apologize to my readers about me being gone for so long. I especially wanted to apologize to my friend "Ray" for not being there for him recently due to the fact that I have been so stressed out lately.
So here is what you have missed. I ran into a girl from my past that I realized recently I wasn't being as nice to her as I could have been because I was jealous of her. I went up to her right away and apologized and told her she didn't deserve it and it was horrible of me. Luckily she accepted my apology and we have been acting like it never happened now. We message each other on Facebook all the time now just to see how the other is doing. Apologizing to her was probably the best thing I have ever done.
In other news, on 11/11/11 I went home and saw that the cat that saved my life two years ago was in and out of the bathroom, but wasn't going to the bathroom. I also noticed that when he would sit on the ground, there would be blood on it. Immediately I called the vet to make sure that he was okay, and they asked me to bring him in ASAP. Once they got there, they told me it was a bladder infection and it wasn't that big of a deal. However, then came the bad news. The vet said to me, "Does he always breathe so heavy?" I told her, "Yeah, I asked the groomer about it once and she said that it was completely normal." She responded with, "Don't ever trust your groomer." She told me she wanted to get an X-ray of his chest to make sure everything was okay, so she did. That was when she came into the waiting room very quickly and talking quickly. She showed me the X-ray of a normal cat and of Simon. Simon's lungs were barely visible. They filled with fluid and were unable to expand.
She then told me she had to drain the fluid and said that the fluid might come back. I don't remember what she said after that, but it lead me to ask the question, "Will he die?" and she responded with, "I don't know." That was it. I broke down. Simon was my life. I loved Simon more than anything. I left him at the vets office for a couple of hours for his treatment while I went to my preoperative appointment for my breast augmentation. When I was there I got a phone call telling me that Simon was much better and they were able to get A LOT of fluid out of him. They told me he seemed to be happy wand was purring a lot. After my appointment I went to the vet's office to pick him up. I brought him to my house and practically never left his side. I told him how much I loved him and that I was so thankful that he was okay.
For a couple days I kept him on a certain diet, bought him a water fountain so he would drink more, and gave him his medication three times a day. This was when I noticed that Simon had been throwing up his medication around the house. I also noticed that his breathing pattern was bad again. I called the vet and asked them if this was normal. They then made another appointment for him and asked me to bring him in. They told me that his fluid was back and that they were thinking he might not make it. They said there a series of tests including ultrasounds and X-rays that they could do to see if it is something that has a cure or not that they could run. Knowing that I love my cat more than life itself, I said...RUN IT!
Once Simon was stable, I took him to the animal hospital and checked him in. For the next several days Simon stayed in the ICU and went through some tests. I wanted to save his life, no matter how much it would cost. I came every day during visiting hours and petted him. Sometimes I was only able to see him for a moment, but it was okay with me. After all the tests were run, I got another phone call telling me that all the tests came back inconclusive and that Simon's quality of life wouldn't be a great one. They said if I kept letting him live like this he would be suffering and that eventually he might not be able to breathe on his own. I knew then, that I had to put him to sleep.
Putting Simon to sleep was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Spencer was with me the whole time, even he was on the verge of tears. I was there during the procedure. I watched them do the whole thing. He was there, and then he wasn't. After he was gone all I wanted to do was hold him. I let them take him away from me after a few minutes. They told me I could spend as much time with him as I wanted, but I knew I didn't want to end up sitting with him alone. I was already hyperventilating when the doctor was in the room, the last thing I needed was to have a complete melt down while being alone.
Simon died on 11/17/2011 ... exactly two years after he saved my life. I miss him every single day.
The next day I went in for my surgery. I was in a lot of pain for a while, and I was pretty drugged up for a while. I also spent a lot of my time mourning over Simon's death. I brought Bella, Simon's sister, to meet the rest of Spencer's pets, this way she will never have to be alone. She seems to be doing well now.
These days I have been working every moment of every day trying to finish my school projects, essays, and studying for finals. I haven't had much time to settle down. I still cry about Simon. I have NEVER felt so much love for anything.
The photo that I have put on this entry is the photo in which I intend on using in a picture box where I will hold Simon's ashes. It is the first picture that I have ever taken of Simon. This is my favorite picture because it portrays Simon in such an amazing way. He was always so curious of his surroundings. He was never shy, he just wanted love.
RIP Simon, my baby boy.
So here is what you have missed. I ran into a girl from my past that I realized recently I wasn't being as nice to her as I could have been because I was jealous of her. I went up to her right away and apologized and told her she didn't deserve it and it was horrible of me. Luckily she accepted my apology and we have been acting like it never happened now. We message each other on Facebook all the time now just to see how the other is doing. Apologizing to her was probably the best thing I have ever done.
In other news, on 11/11/11 I went home and saw that the cat that saved my life two years ago was in and out of the bathroom, but wasn't going to the bathroom. I also noticed that when he would sit on the ground, there would be blood on it. Immediately I called the vet to make sure that he was okay, and they asked me to bring him in ASAP. Once they got there, they told me it was a bladder infection and it wasn't that big of a deal. However, then came the bad news. The vet said to me, "Does he always breathe so heavy?" I told her, "Yeah, I asked the groomer about it once and she said that it was completely normal." She responded with, "Don't ever trust your groomer." She told me she wanted to get an X-ray of his chest to make sure everything was okay, so she did. That was when she came into the waiting room very quickly and talking quickly. She showed me the X-ray of a normal cat and of Simon. Simon's lungs were barely visible. They filled with fluid and were unable to expand.
She then told me she had to drain the fluid and said that the fluid might come back. I don't remember what she said after that, but it lead me to ask the question, "Will he die?" and she responded with, "I don't know." That was it. I broke down. Simon was my life. I loved Simon more than anything. I left him at the vets office for a couple of hours for his treatment while I went to my preoperative appointment for my breast augmentation. When I was there I got a phone call telling me that Simon was much better and they were able to get A LOT of fluid out of him. They told me he seemed to be happy wand was purring a lot. After my appointment I went to the vet's office to pick him up. I brought him to my house and practically never left his side. I told him how much I loved him and that I was so thankful that he was okay.
For a couple days I kept him on a certain diet, bought him a water fountain so he would drink more, and gave him his medication three times a day. This was when I noticed that Simon had been throwing up his medication around the house. I also noticed that his breathing pattern was bad again. I called the vet and asked them if this was normal. They then made another appointment for him and asked me to bring him in. They told me that his fluid was back and that they were thinking he might not make it. They said there a series of tests including ultrasounds and X-rays that they could do to see if it is something that has a cure or not that they could run. Knowing that I love my cat more than life itself, I said...RUN IT!
Once Simon was stable, I took him to the animal hospital and checked him in. For the next several days Simon stayed in the ICU and went through some tests. I wanted to save his life, no matter how much it would cost. I came every day during visiting hours and petted him. Sometimes I was only able to see him for a moment, but it was okay with me. After all the tests were run, I got another phone call telling me that all the tests came back inconclusive and that Simon's quality of life wouldn't be a great one. They said if I kept letting him live like this he would be suffering and that eventually he might not be able to breathe on his own. I knew then, that I had to put him to sleep.
Putting Simon to sleep was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Spencer was with me the whole time, even he was on the verge of tears. I was there during the procedure. I watched them do the whole thing. He was there, and then he wasn't. After he was gone all I wanted to do was hold him. I let them take him away from me after a few minutes. They told me I could spend as much time with him as I wanted, but I knew I didn't want to end up sitting with him alone. I was already hyperventilating when the doctor was in the room, the last thing I needed was to have a complete melt down while being alone.
Simon died on 11/17/2011 ... exactly two years after he saved my life. I miss him every single day.
The next day I went in for my surgery. I was in a lot of pain for a while, and I was pretty drugged up for a while. I also spent a lot of my time mourning over Simon's death. I brought Bella, Simon's sister, to meet the rest of Spencer's pets, this way she will never have to be alone. She seems to be doing well now.
These days I have been working every moment of every day trying to finish my school projects, essays, and studying for finals. I haven't had much time to settle down. I still cry about Simon. I have NEVER felt so much love for anything.
The photo that I have put on this entry is the photo in which I intend on using in a picture box where I will hold Simon's ashes. It is the first picture that I have ever taken of Simon. This is my favorite picture because it portrays Simon in such an amazing way. He was always so curious of his surroundings. He was never shy, he just wanted love.
RIP Simon, my baby boy.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Repressed Memory
Day 93
This is the weirdest thing. My boyfriend and I were talking about bullying and cyber bullying when all of a sudden I remembered being cyber bullied. I remembered that in middle school there were these two girls that for some weird reason began to hate me. If I remember correctly it was because her boyfriend was interested in being my friend and she was worried it was more than friendship. Anyways, one day they made a fake AIM account and used it to say really hurtful things to me. They called me fat and ugly.
It is so weird that I have forgotten so many things from my past. I believe that when I write my blog, old feelings come back, as well as the old memories.
In other news...I have some bad news. I was not able to get my footage done in time for MTV's Bullied. I am so bummed because I thought it was a great thing that they were doing, but with school and work, I just wasn't able to do enough for it. The video that I posted recently was given to them, but nothing else. I kind of doubt that they will use my footage because there wasn't enough of it. I am however still waiting to hear from MTV's Cut. I should be hearing from them this week. YAY!!
<3 Angel
This is the weirdest thing. My boyfriend and I were talking about bullying and cyber bullying when all of a sudden I remembered being cyber bullied. I remembered that in middle school there were these two girls that for some weird reason began to hate me. If I remember correctly it was because her boyfriend was interested in being my friend and she was worried it was more than friendship. Anyways, one day they made a fake AIM account and used it to say really hurtful things to me. They called me fat and ugly.
It is so weird that I have forgotten so many things from my past. I believe that when I write my blog, old feelings come back, as well as the old memories.
In other news...I have some bad news. I was not able to get my footage done in time for MTV's Bullied. I am so bummed because I thought it was a great thing that they were doing, but with school and work, I just wasn't able to do enough for it. The video that I posted recently was given to them, but nothing else. I kind of doubt that they will use my footage because there wasn't enough of it. I am however still waiting to hear from MTV's Cut. I should be hearing from them this week. YAY!!
<3 Angel
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
My footage for MTV
Day 86
MY FOOTAGE
Hey guys!
This is my video footage from what I will be sending to MTV for their documentary. Sorry, but I don't know how to post these videos directly onto my blog. Hope you enjoy it!
In other news, I will be on CBS Atlanta AGAIN tonight at 11, so in 50 minutes! :D Also, I will be playing Janet at Rocky Horror at Plaza Atlanta this Friday night. I really hope to see all of you there! Make sure you come say hello if you come! Please pre order your tickets because we will sell out! This is our biggest show of the year aside from Dragon Con.
Thats all for now.
<3 always,
Angel
Hey guys!
This is my video footage from what I will be sending to MTV for their documentary. Sorry, but I don't know how to post these videos directly onto my blog. Hope you enjoy it!
In other news, I will be on CBS Atlanta AGAIN tonight at 11, so in 50 minutes! :D Also, I will be playing Janet at Rocky Horror at Plaza Atlanta this Friday night. I really hope to see all of you there! Make sure you come say hello if you come! Please pre order your tickets because we will sell out! This is our biggest show of the year aside from Dragon Con.
Thats all for now.
<3 always,
Angel
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Excitement
Still Day 81
I just wanted to take a quick moment out of my day to mention how excited I am. After seeing the interview on CBS news I just feel empowered and proud to be who I am. As I mentioned in the interview I have no idea who I am and I am struggling very hard to find that out. However, after this all began I can't stop thinking that this is what I am supposed to be doing with my life. I am on a mission, and I will not stop until I make a difference in the world. :) Everyone, just remember, I can't do it alone. I need your help! Please help me spread the word about this blog and my mission. It is because of all of you that things are happening.
Oh almost forgot to mention this...I will be sending in my footage to MTV's Bullied this coming week. I spoke to them recently, and it seems like something I really want to do. If you can't remember MTV bullied is a documentary that they are doing that shows that bullying takes place all over the world. I will know in about a month if I get selected to be a part of it! :)
Angel
Oh almost forgot to mention this...I will be sending in my footage to MTV's Bullied this coming week. I spoke to them recently, and it seems like something I really want to do. If you can't remember MTV bullied is a documentary that they are doing that shows that bullying takes place all over the world. I will know in about a month if I get selected to be a part of it! :)
Angel
Bullying, attempted suicide and how a metro Atlanta girl survived it all
Day 81
Bullying, attempted suicide and how a metro Atlanta girl survived it all: A rare look into the world of bullying and the emotional toll it takes on the victims.
The video of my interview is now online! Check it out!
Bullying, attempted suicide and how a metro Atlanta girl survived it all: A rare look into the world of bullying and the emotional toll it takes on the victims.
The video of my interview is now online! Check it out!
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
News article
Still Day 80
Hey guys! Here is the news article done by CBS!
http://www.cbsatlanta.com/story/15734497/bullying-attempted-suicide-and-how-a-metro-atlanta-girl-survived-it-all This is the link if you want to check it out!
Hey guys! Here is the news article done by CBS!
http://www.cbsatlanta.com/story/15734497/bullying-attempted-suicide-and-how-a-metro-atlanta-girl-survived-it-all This is the link if you want to check it out!
Check out my interview about bullying on CBS!!
Day 80
Hey guys, in just over 15 minutes I will be on CBS News Atlanta answering questions in an interview about bullying. Please check it out. So sorry I posted this so late, but no worries, I will post the video of it on this blog tomorrow if you didn't get enough of a chance to see it. Also, this will be reairing tomorrow around 4 or 5!
Until tomorrow!
Angel
Hey guys, in just over 15 minutes I will be on CBS News Atlanta answering questions in an interview about bullying. Please check it out. So sorry I posted this so late, but no worries, I will post the video of it on this blog tomorrow if you didn't get enough of a chance to see it. Also, this will be reairing tomorrow around 4 or 5!
Until tomorrow!
Angel
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Quick update on CBS and MTV
Day 79
Hey guys!
I just wanted to take a brief moment to update you on what is coming up. I would love to do a very detailed entry, but it is midterm week at school and things are VERY hectic right now. So tomorrow CBS News Atlanta will be coming over and they will be interviewing me on my bullied past. YAY! Even though I would LOVE for them to talk some about my blog, they told me they are more interested in what happened to me and my story. No biggie. I am happy to share my story.
I spoke to MTV yesterday and they said that the deadline for everyone is Friday and they will know who they will choose in about a week and a half, so now I just have to wait. Yay for more waiting.
So that is my update for now...
Will update again soon!
<3 always,
Angel
Hey guys!
I just wanted to take a brief moment to update you on what is coming up. I would love to do a very detailed entry, but it is midterm week at school and things are VERY hectic right now. So tomorrow CBS News Atlanta will be coming over and they will be interviewing me on my bullied past. YAY! Even though I would LOVE for them to talk some about my blog, they told me they are more interested in what happened to me and my story. No biggie. I am happy to share my story.
I spoke to MTV yesterday and they said that the deadline for everyone is Friday and they will know who they will choose in about a week and a half, so now I just have to wait. Yay for more waiting.
So that is my update for now...
Will update again soon!
<3 always,
Angel
Friday, October 14, 2011
The Biggest News Thus Far
Day 75
So here I am, just thinking about the upcoming weekend and how I am hoping it will be some fun when I get a text message. Now, of course just like several other people, I get a couple text messages every day, but this text message was no ordinary text message. This text message...was from CBS NEWS ATLANTA! As you all know, I have been in contact with CBS recently about the possibility that they will do a story on me and air it on their news station. Well, after long talks with the producers, they have decided to put me on! We have decided to film on Wednesday morning, but I don't know many details yet. She told me they will call on Monday with everything I need to know. This is such a huge break. I can share my story and help so many people! I am just so happy right now.
This came at the perfect time because I have fallen in another bullying story. I have had a really hard time finding myself. I have no idea who I am, what my favorite food, or color, or anything is. I constantly change my appearance and my interests just to fit in with the people around me. So, the day before yesterday I decided to change the color of my hair from platinum blonde, to burgundy because people kept making fun of me and were calling me Malfoy. (That is the guy from Harry Potter) In the beginning people said it as a joke, then eventually it just started sounding mean, and I didn't want to get compared to a boy too, so I decided to color it. Problem with putting burgundy hair color on top of platinum blonde hair..it turns greyish,burgundy,purple. Long story short...it didn't look good. I went to work the next day with a wig in my bag because I wasn't sure it looked natural enough for me to not wear a wig. After a little while, my boss told me it would be best for me to wear the wig, so I did.
At the end of the shift, I decided to take my wig off because I was tired and my head itched. I grabbed my belongings and left for the day. While at school, I received a phone call from a co-worker explaining to me that when I left, more employees saw my hair and spent several hours laughing about it and making fun of me behind my back. I was devastated. I didn't see why my physical appearance had to be a laughing matter or any of their business. I felt like I was right back in high school. My day was ruined. I had a horrible day at school, and I just wanted to go home. Not to mention...I cried.
So after school, I got home and right away colored my hair purple because it was the only thing I could think of to do to make it look good without applying any bleach to my already completely dried out hair. When I came to work today, I already had my wig on. I didn't talk to the people that said those hurtful things about me because I honestly just emotionally couldn't handle pretending that I wasn't hurt. At some point of the night, someone saw a small piece of my hair sticking out of my wig and said that I need to stop coloring my hair and blah blah blah. Once again there they went talking badly about me. I just wanted it to stop. I left work today with my wig on. I couldn't stand the possibility of what would happen if they all saw how bright purple my hair is.
So that is what has been happening. Great news on top of a crappy week. I decided to post this picture (again) from last year. This is exactly what my hair looks like now, but it is a little bit shorter now. Like I said, it is different and it is very purple.
Hope you like it!
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Email me if you like!
Journey_to_fame@yahoo.com
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Thanks so much for reading, until next time!!
Angel
This came at the perfect time because I have fallen in another bullying story. I have had a really hard time finding myself. I have no idea who I am, what my favorite food, or color, or anything is. I constantly change my appearance and my interests just to fit in with the people around me. So, the day before yesterday I decided to change the color of my hair from platinum blonde, to burgundy because people kept making fun of me and were calling me Malfoy. (That is the guy from Harry Potter) In the beginning people said it as a joke, then eventually it just started sounding mean, and I didn't want to get compared to a boy too, so I decided to color it. Problem with putting burgundy hair color on top of platinum blonde hair..it turns greyish,burgundy,purple. Long story short...it didn't look good. I went to work the next day with a wig in my bag because I wasn't sure it looked natural enough for me to not wear a wig. After a little while, my boss told me it would be best for me to wear the wig, so I did.
At the end of the shift, I decided to take my wig off because I was tired and my head itched. I grabbed my belongings and left for the day. While at school, I received a phone call from a co-worker explaining to me that when I left, more employees saw my hair and spent several hours laughing about it and making fun of me behind my back. I was devastated. I didn't see why my physical appearance had to be a laughing matter or any of their business. I felt like I was right back in high school. My day was ruined. I had a horrible day at school, and I just wanted to go home. Not to mention...I cried.
So after school, I got home and right away colored my hair purple because it was the only thing I could think of to do to make it look good without applying any bleach to my already completely dried out hair. When I came to work today, I already had my wig on. I didn't talk to the people that said those hurtful things about me because I honestly just emotionally couldn't handle pretending that I wasn't hurt. At some point of the night, someone saw a small piece of my hair sticking out of my wig and said that I need to stop coloring my hair and blah blah blah. Once again there they went talking badly about me. I just wanted it to stop. I left work today with my wig on. I couldn't stand the possibility of what would happen if they all saw how bright purple my hair is.
So that is what has been happening. Great news on top of a crappy week. I decided to post this picture (again) from last year. This is exactly what my hair looks like now, but it is a little bit shorter now. Like I said, it is different and it is very purple.
Hope you like it!
Please subscribe to my blog and comment.
Email me if you like!
Journey_to_fame@yahoo.com
OR
Dance2616@yahoo.com
Also, please follow me on twitter!
@ Dance2616 AND @ Journey_to_Fame
(I post different things on both of them!)
Thanks so much for reading, until next time!!
Angel
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Wow.
Day 73
So not much AMAZING news has happened lately, but still some things have happened that I feel are GREAT accomplishments.I have had so many people come reach out lately. Most find me on Facebook. So as they are reaching out, they are telling me that they love how open I am being and then the best thing happens...they tell me their stories! I am so happy that people feel like they know me once they have read my blog. Since they feel like they know me, they feel like they can trust me, and they open up. It is just such a great accomplishment knowing that I am actually helping people!
In other news...I had a pastor come into my place of work yesterday. We began talking and I told him all about my blog and the things I have been doing. I of course mentioned my lack in belief of G-d as well. After about 45 minutes talking, he told me, "You are going places and I care for you more than I care for anyone else. I care more for you than I care for some of the people in my church." --Not an exact quote...can't remember word for word. :) Anyways, It was just great to get support from so many people.
That's it for today! Please subscribe to my blog and my twitter @Dance2616
Angel
In other news...I had a pastor come into my place of work yesterday. We began talking and I told him all about my blog and the things I have been doing. I of course mentioned my lack in belief of G-d as well. After about 45 minutes talking, he told me, "You are going places and I care for you more than I care for anyone else. I care more for you than I care for some of the people in my church." --Not an exact quote...can't remember word for word. :) Anyways, It was just great to get support from so many people.
That's it for today! Please subscribe to my blog and my twitter @Dance2616
Angel
Monday, October 3, 2011
Part 2
Still Day 64
Hey guys!
I am so sorry that I didn't have this entry up earlier like I promised. I was going to update in between classes, but someone had taken my back pack by accident, so I had to wait until he came back with it, and then I was out of time. So here I am sitting in class updating my blog. Kinda feel bad for the professor since I am basically on this blog every time I come to class.
So here is my secret. Recently I found out some information about a new documentary that MTV is doing. It is called CUT. It is about students that are in high school or college getting ready to under go plastic surgery. The reason that this is so big for me is because if I get chosen to do this, a camera crew will follow me around for a little while and it will give me the time I need to mention everything from bullies, my acting career, and my blog.
So when I first mentioned that I had a secret, the secret was that I applied for this documentary and I got an email back sending me a questionnaire. (a very long one!) In this questionnaire I answered questions like, tell me about yourself, why do you want this surgery, what message can you send to other people that want to do this too. Anyways, I was pretty excited because I knew I was in the running for it.
Then, earlier today, MTV called me telling me that the producer of the show wanted to call me for an interview. I decided to set it up for 2:00pm today. When she called she asked many questions about the questionnaire and then we just talked for a little bit about the surgery. Being in my situation, I was estatic that it had gone so far as to get a phone call from the producer. Anyways, at the end of the conversation she said that she was really glad we talked and they will know who they choose in about 2 weeks. That is pretty understandable since they have a lot of people to talk to about it.
So here I am, once again doing the waiting game. I thought I was getting a definite answer today, but turns out I won't. I was feeling REALLY confident before the interview, but now...not so much. I'm thinking it's just because I'm really wanting this. So, that is my secret. What do you guys think??
Angel
Hey guys!
I am so sorry that I didn't have this entry up earlier like I promised. I was going to update in between classes, but someone had taken my back pack by accident, so I had to wait until he came back with it, and then I was out of time. So here I am sitting in class updating my blog. Kinda feel bad for the professor since I am basically on this blog every time I come to class.
So here is my secret. Recently I found out some information about a new documentary that MTV is doing. It is called CUT. It is about students that are in high school or college getting ready to under go plastic surgery. The reason that this is so big for me is because if I get chosen to do this, a camera crew will follow me around for a little while and it will give me the time I need to mention everything from bullies, my acting career, and my blog.
So when I first mentioned that I had a secret, the secret was that I applied for this documentary and I got an email back sending me a questionnaire. (a very long one!) In this questionnaire I answered questions like, tell me about yourself, why do you want this surgery, what message can you send to other people that want to do this too. Anyways, I was pretty excited because I knew I was in the running for it.
Then, earlier today, MTV called me telling me that the producer of the show wanted to call me for an interview. I decided to set it up for 2:00pm today. When she called she asked many questions about the questionnaire and then we just talked for a little bit about the surgery. Being in my situation, I was estatic that it had gone so far as to get a phone call from the producer. Anyways, at the end of the conversation she said that she was really glad we talked and they will know who they choose in about 2 weeks. That is pretty understandable since they have a lot of people to talk to about it.
So here I am, once again doing the waiting game. I thought I was getting a definite answer today, but turns out I won't. I was feeling REALLY confident before the interview, but now...not so much. I'm thinking it's just because I'm really wanting this. So, that is my secret. What do you guys think??
Angel
This...is HUGE (part 1)
Day 64
So in my last entry, I had mentioned that I have a secret. It turns out, that secret may very well be HUGE news. Not only is this possible huge news, it might accomplish my mission! I don't want to give out to many details just yet. I am expecting a very important phone call around 2:00pm telling me more about it. I am expecing to have an entry up hopefully before 4:00pm telling all about this. Details and EVERYTHING! I know some of my followers have been begging me for the news, so today, it will be up!
In other news, I spoke to two people in the last couple days that were down and really needed my help. I really think I did help them, and I am so glad that this blog is beginning to do what I intended on it doing.
I went to a festival over the weekend. I met some people and had a really great time. I met these two girls and I cannot explain how grateful I am that I met them. I have a REALLY hard time making friends just because I do still sometimes have issues with being insecure. These girls are just absolutely amazing. Very artistic, and very real. One of them I almost feel is like my twin. Not my physical appearance twin, but she and I have gone through so much of the same thing and have so many similar interests that I feel like we are one in the same. I hope to see these girls again soon! One lives in Tennessee, but hopefully that won't change anything. That's not too far away right!? Anyways, regardless I would love to thank these girls for showing me a great time and helping me through my insecurities. We only hung out for one day, but it feels like I've known you both for years. <3 u guys!!
See you guys later today for the big announcement!!
<3 Always,
Angel
In other news, I spoke to two people in the last couple days that were down and really needed my help. I really think I did help them, and I am so glad that this blog is beginning to do what I intended on it doing.
I went to a festival over the weekend. I met some people and had a really great time. I met these two girls and I cannot explain how grateful I am that I met them. I have a REALLY hard time making friends just because I do still sometimes have issues with being insecure. These girls are just absolutely amazing. Very artistic, and very real. One of them I almost feel is like my twin. Not my physical appearance twin, but she and I have gone through so much of the same thing and have so many similar interests that I feel like we are one in the same. I hope to see these girls again soon! One lives in Tennessee, but hopefully that won't change anything. That's not too far away right!? Anyways, regardless I would love to thank these girls for showing me a great time and helping me through my insecurities. We only hung out for one day, but it feels like I've known you both for years. <3 u guys!!
See you guys later today for the big announcement!!
<3 Always,
Angel
Thursday, September 29, 2011
I've got a secret!
Day 60
Special thanks to Derrick Tyson for taking this fabulous photo of me!!
So even though I had a minor set back due to my schedule, things have not slowed down. I received a message from CBS news yesterday, and they just wanted to ensure me that they have not forgotten about me and that they are still in talks with the producer about the story and how it will be done. :)
In other news, I believe that something BIG is heading my way. However, I think I'm going to keep you guys on your toes for just a little bit and give myself some time to make sure that this is really coming. Who knows though, maybe if I get 200 views in one day, or at least 50 official followers (which ever comes first) I might just tell you early! :)
I hope you guys don't mind that I am doing this, but I honestly feel like it is for the best.
So, bullying story for the day. In fact, this story takes place...TODAY! I was at work earlier this morning when I mentioned to some co-workers that I was hungry and couldn't wait to get off of work so I could get something to eat. One of my co-workers then responded with, "What are you anorexic or something?" I responded with, "Actually, yes, thanks." He was blown away. There is a lesson in here folks. Please be careful in what you say. Even if you are saying something in a joking way, you might say something offensive and very hurtful. This is not the first time this has happened this week. Earlier, my professor was talking about eating disorders and making fun of people who have them. He said things like, "Who in their right mind would do such a thing?!" Here I am sitting in his class very upset and didn't have the courage to say anything.
In my opinion, having an eating disorder eats you whole. It takes over and you no longer have control of what you are doing. Some days I say to myself that I'm hungry and should eat, but then I realize that it is already 5:00pm and the day is almost over, I'll just eat the next day. So, please watch what you say, you never know a persons story unless, they share it with you.
In other news, I have finally had someone reach out to me after reading my blog. He found me on facebook and we have been talking quite often. Thought I'd give him a quick shout out! :) Anyways, today he had something quite different and drastic happen to him. I won't say what it was because it is not my place, but long story short, I was able to talk to him and tell him how great he handled it. He seemed upset because of how crazy the situation was, and I hope I'm right about this, but I really believe I helped. :)He then said, "Thanks for being here for me." That one sentence, probably made my week. This is what I am here for guys. I am here to help others. I am here to share my story, so people don't feel alone in the world. I have had a couple people tell me now that they love how open and honest I am, and honestly, there is no other way to have this blog. I will answer all questions, and I will be an open book to anyone.
Thanks for reading today's entry!
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<3 Angel
So even though I had a minor set back due to my schedule, things have not slowed down. I received a message from CBS news yesterday, and they just wanted to ensure me that they have not forgotten about me and that they are still in talks with the producer about the story and how it will be done. :)
In other news, I believe that something BIG is heading my way. However, I think I'm going to keep you guys on your toes for just a little bit and give myself some time to make sure that this is really coming. Who knows though, maybe if I get 200 views in one day, or at least 50 official followers (which ever comes first) I might just tell you early! :)
I hope you guys don't mind that I am doing this, but I honestly feel like it is for the best.
So, bullying story for the day. In fact, this story takes place...TODAY! I was at work earlier this morning when I mentioned to some co-workers that I was hungry and couldn't wait to get off of work so I could get something to eat. One of my co-workers then responded with, "What are you anorexic or something?" I responded with, "Actually, yes, thanks." He was blown away. There is a lesson in here folks. Please be careful in what you say. Even if you are saying something in a joking way, you might say something offensive and very hurtful. This is not the first time this has happened this week. Earlier, my professor was talking about eating disorders and making fun of people who have them. He said things like, "Who in their right mind would do such a thing?!" Here I am sitting in his class very upset and didn't have the courage to say anything.
In my opinion, having an eating disorder eats you whole. It takes over and you no longer have control of what you are doing. Some days I say to myself that I'm hungry and should eat, but then I realize that it is already 5:00pm and the day is almost over, I'll just eat the next day. So, please watch what you say, you never know a persons story unless, they share it with you.
In other news, I have finally had someone reach out to me after reading my blog. He found me on facebook and we have been talking quite often. Thought I'd give him a quick shout out! :) Anyways, today he had something quite different and drastic happen to him. I won't say what it was because it is not my place, but long story short, I was able to talk to him and tell him how great he handled it. He seemed upset because of how crazy the situation was, and I hope I'm right about this, but I really believe I helped. :)He then said, "Thanks for being here for me." That one sentence, probably made my week. This is what I am here for guys. I am here to help others. I am here to share my story, so people don't feel alone in the world. I have had a couple people tell me now that they love how open and honest I am, and honestly, there is no other way to have this blog. I will answer all questions, and I will be an open book to anyone.
Thanks for reading today's entry!
Please subscribe, tell your friends, and comment!
<3 Angel
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
A tough decison
Day 58
Decided to post this pictures so you can all see my hair color. It changes pretty often, but here it is, PLATINUM BLONDE!
So last night my boyfriend and I were hanging out and we got to talking about the Bullied documentary. We then decided that it is probably best for me to turn down the opportunity because with work and school I just don't have the time to sit down myself and film on my own. They were asking me to film on my own and then send it to them because they wanted a more person feel to it. I had all these great ideas about interviewing people such as old teachers and my friend that was the there the day I attempted suicide, but with all the things going on right now, it just doesn't seem doable.
So, at the moment, this is a minor setback, but it is a set back that I believe won't keep me back for a while. :) Gotta stay positive and strong.
Have a great day guys!
Angel
So last night my boyfriend and I were hanging out and we got to talking about the Bullied documentary. We then decided that it is probably best for me to turn down the opportunity because with work and school I just don't have the time to sit down myself and film on my own. They were asking me to film on my own and then send it to them because they wanted a more person feel to it. I had all these great ideas about interviewing people such as old teachers and my friend that was the there the day I attempted suicide, but with all the things going on right now, it just doesn't seem doable.
So, at the moment, this is a minor setback, but it is a set back that I believe won't keep me back for a while. :) Gotta stay positive and strong.
Have a great day guys!
Angel
Monday, September 26, 2011
I feel horrible!
Day 57
Not sure what is going on, but I am losing the will to continue. I feel depressed, and just horrible. As I have originally mentioned, my best of best would to achieve fame and to use my fame to end bullying, but I feel like no matter how hard I try, no one listens. How many must die for people to stand up? Not really in the mood for anything at the moment. I'll write again soon.
Polina aka Angel
Not sure what is going on, but I am losing the will to continue. I feel depressed, and just horrible. As I have originally mentioned, my best of best would to achieve fame and to use my fame to end bullying, but I feel like no matter how hard I try, no one listens. How many must die for people to stand up? Not really in the mood for anything at the moment. I'll write again soon.
Polina aka Angel
Thursday, September 22, 2011
So tired...must update!
Day 53
Hey guys! Even though I am absolutely exhausted and really want to get some shut eye, I would LOVE to fill you all in on whats been going on. After work today I got a call from MTV and we talked on the phone for almost an hour. We went through all kinds of things that happened to me and their affects that they caused.After this, we talked about the actual documentary. Basically they want this to be as natural as possible. They are choosing people from all over the world to show that bullying occurs all over the world. They asked me to film on my own, my life, explaining my story in any way that I want. Once this is done, I will send it to them, and they will combine it with others and make a whole movie. It's pretty exciting and I'm sure it will be a lot of fun. I am planning on going to my old high school and asking some teachers if I can interview them so they can tell the world about what happened as well. So, hopefully tomorrow the filming begins! I'll write again soon, but for now, I really need to get to bed! So tired!
Journey_to_Fame@yahoo.com
Polina
Ps. I thought I'd insert a picture of my back. It has a tattoo that I am VERY proud of. If you can't read it, it is the serenity prayer. It reads, "Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."
Journey_to_Fame@yahoo.com
Polina
Ps. I thought I'd insert a picture of my back. It has a tattoo that I am VERY proud of. If you can't read it, it is the serenity prayer. It reads, "Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
So much great news!!
Day 52
So many FANTASTIC things have been happening, and it is all because of my readers. So lets begin with Monday night.
As I was driving home from work, I FINALLY got the call from CBS. Even though things aren't very concrete about that yet, things are in the works. They did a small interview type thing over the phone, seemed really interested. They are now talking to the producers of the show, and told me they will call me soon to set up an appointment to film the actual interview!! YAY!!
So here is some possibly even bigger news. I got contacted today by MTV. They are apparently doing a documentary about people that have been bullied and what happened to them because of it. I'm guessing that they saw this entry, and therefore contacted me through twitter because of it.This is kinda big news...but it would of course be bigger if I knew for sure that they will choose me. Only time will tell. I emailed them back, so now I am just waiting for an email back! :)
Wish me luck!!
Here's my contact information.
My email is open to all of you to contact me for any reason.
Please hit the follow button in the top left hand corner.
Journey_to_Fame@yahoo.com
I will help anyone any way that I can. :)
Thanks for reading and please tell your friends, or anyone that might need help!
Twitter: Dance2616 or Journey_to_Fame (I use Dance2616 more)
Here is another story...well it is kinda a story.
So first day of high school, I thought things would be great! It was lunch time and I still hadn't made any friends. I was sitting in the cafeteria (alone in a corner basically) hoping someone would sit next to me. For about 10 minutes I sat there with probably at least 5 chairs around me completely empty. Not a single person sat next to me, nor did they speak to me unless it was to ask if they could take the chair to a different table. This is the day that I started eating in the library. I want people to know, completely avoiding people and pretending that they don't exist because they don't look cool to you, is totally a form a bullying! I honestly can't even count the number of times I have tried putting my two cents into someone's conversation just so I can meet people, and they avoid me until I leave. I don't get it. I promise, I don't smell, I shower, brush my hair and teeth, and in fact am a REALLY nice person. What did I do so wrong to make people dislike me before they met me? So that's my story for today.
As I was driving home from work, I FINALLY got the call from CBS. Even though things aren't very concrete about that yet, things are in the works. They did a small interview type thing over the phone, seemed really interested. They are now talking to the producers of the show, and told me they will call me soon to set up an appointment to film the actual interview!! YAY!!
So here is some possibly even bigger news. I got contacted today by MTV. They are apparently doing a documentary about people that have been bullied and what happened to them because of it. I'm guessing that they saw this entry, and therefore contacted me through twitter because of it.This is kinda big news...but it would of course be bigger if I knew for sure that they will choose me. Only time will tell. I emailed them back, so now I am just waiting for an email back! :)
Wish me luck!!
Here's my contact information.
My email is open to all of you to contact me for any reason.
Please hit the follow button in the top left hand corner.
Journey_to_Fame@yahoo.com
I will help anyone any way that I can. :)
Thanks for reading and please tell your friends, or anyone that might need help!
Twitter: Dance2616 or Journey_to_Fame (I use Dance2616 more)
Here is another story...well it is kinda a story.
So first day of high school, I thought things would be great! It was lunch time and I still hadn't made any friends. I was sitting in the cafeteria (alone in a corner basically) hoping someone would sit next to me. For about 10 minutes I sat there with probably at least 5 chairs around me completely empty. Not a single person sat next to me, nor did they speak to me unless it was to ask if they could take the chair to a different table. This is the day that I started eating in the library. I want people to know, completely avoiding people and pretending that they don't exist because they don't look cool to you, is totally a form a bullying! I honestly can't even count the number of times I have tried putting my two cents into someone's conversation just so I can meet people, and they avoid me until I leave. I don't get it. I promise, I don't smell, I shower, brush my hair and teeth, and in fact am a REALLY nice person. What did I do so wrong to make people dislike me before they met me? So that's my story for today.
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