Am I on MTV's Made???

Day Five

Well, things were a little crazy yesterday. As usual, I went to work in the morning. I got a really mean customer, so my day there wasn't all that great. When I got home my boyfriend and I went to Phipps mall so I could buy a dress for his cousin's wedding. After that, to Sally's Beauty Supply we went to buy hair color. I knew this day was coming up because I promised that I would color my hair so that way if any of it came out of the wig during Dragon Con, it wouldn't matter because my dirty blonde hair now matches the wig color! I've never been a dirty blonde before. I kinda like it!

So last night I had a bit of a weird acting dream. In my dream I was at the store with my boyfriend when we noticed that we were in front of a girl in line who was filming for MTV's Made. I then started moving around to ensure that I was in the camera's view. Eventually, I even fake fainted. As the dream went on, we walked around the store with the girl. She was very friendly and loved the camera as much as I did. Towards the end of the dream, I noticed that my boyfriend was sitting outside looking sad. When I went to confront him, he said everything was fine. We then noticed something coming from the sky straight for us. As we ran into the store we were pushed to the ground from some sort of force caused by what fell from the sky. I woke up shortly after my boyfriend and I scooted towards the back wall of the store and started holding each other as the worry took over.

The being on Made was kinda cool, but the probably dying part not so much. I wonder if this dream means anything?

Twittered Out

Day 3

Oh my goodness!! The last 2 days have been absolutely insane Twitter wise!I have been all over Twitter doing everything that I possibly could to bring out the word about my blog. Who would have known that it would take that much work to find people to talk about it with?

Anyways, I have decided to take the day off from Twitter today. I need a break. Not to mention, I just got home from Dragon Con practice and I am so tired! It went REALLY well though! I did everything that I was supposed to and I'm finally starting to feel like I deserve the part. I was doubting myself for a little while because I am so new to the part, and there were other people auditioning for the same part that have been doing it for a while now. I'm glad things are going well! :)

Until tomorrow!

<3 Always,
Polina

Melissa Carter from my favorite radio show The Bert Show!!

Day 2

Okay, so every since I was a little girl, on my way to school, or work, or anywhere I would go in the morning, I would listen to The Bert Show on Q100 radio station. I sent out some messages on Twitter mentioning my blog last night, and Melissa Carter from The Bert Show commented on it saying, "Congrats on your gig at @DragonCon!" OMG!! You have no idea about how my heart had dropped that she had gone to my blog, read a little, and even took some time out of her busy day to message me back. I'm starting to think this whole messaging people on Twitter thing was a good idea, because I had 68 views on my blog JUST THIS MORNING! It's only 12:19pm! Can you see the excitement? Boy how I hope that this is just the beginning!!

In other news in the Polina world, I had a blast playing Janet last night. I guess all of those Dragon Con rehearsals have been paying off. When I performed the floor show scene, the director and assistant director almost jumped right out of their seats! Actually, they might have jumped out of their seats. I could hear them yelling with excitement while I was on the stage. It felt great. It really did!!

I guess that is all for today. Please subscribe!

<3 Always,
Polina Milter

Lets start from day 1.

As mentioned much earlier, I have decided to start again on my Journey to Fame. We will start again from today's date. August 5, 2011. Fingers crossed that things go well. Here is a recap for those of you just joining us.


My name is Polina, some people call me Angel.

When I was younger I was bullied. I was bullied so much that I cried all the time in the bathroom at school. Honestly, sometimes it even felt like my teachers were bullying me. As I transitioned into high school I realized that I had no friends. I missed a lot of school, and when I was at school I spent my time alone. I would constantly look up at the clock waiting for class to be over. I spent most school lunches in the library. I didn't see the point of being in the cafeteria alone. Not being able to eat in the library, the amount of times I ate a day slowly decreased. I didn't care. I didn't want to eat. Not to mention, I could look like a cheerleader if I lost some weight! Maybe then I would look hot like them and they would let me on the squad! Sometimes I would be crying and debating on eating lunch in the bathroom...no one could see me crying in a bathroom stall.

I graduated high school in 2009 and moved onto college. It was around this time that I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. A cronic pain disease which turned my life around. Now not only was I depressed because I was alone, but now I was depressed from the pain!The one friend that I did have moved away to St. Louis. On September 17, 2009 I took thirteen sleeping pills in attempt to end my life. What was the point of living life if there was no one there with me? Luckily I began to think of the two kittens I had just adopted and my family. I couldn't put them through my death. I was rushed to the hospital and then sent to Ridgeview Institute.

While in Ridgeview I decided to make a name for myself. To end bullying and to do what I want to do. I want to be on the big screen. I want to end bullying by telling my story. People listen to celebrities. I'd even love to travel to schools and tell them my story! Not to mention, I am FANTASTIC in front of a camera! I can act really well! I want to show people that they aren't alone, and if I can make it through bullying, so can they. Today I attend school at Georgia Perimeter College and I finally have friends!

To conclude, bullying doesn't have to affect everyone as hard as it did me. I started a blog. www.polinamilter.blogspot.com called Journey to Fame. When I left Ridgeview I knew I had to make something of myself. Reach my dreams. Why do I have to settle for less when I know I am worth so much more? I want my dream to come true. I want my name in lights and helping people along the way. My life is an open book, and I need you to help me a long the way.

365 days. That is all that I have. 365 to make it on TV or Movies, or anything of the sort.

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Polina Milter

From The UK to Russia...

HELLO to all my readers!

I was looking around on blog spot and just saw that I could see where all my readers are. I am glad to see that I have much more than I thought I did.

Now, I know I said just a few moments earlier that I was done writing for today, but I thought of a couple things that I felt needed to be said.

1. Thanks for taking time out of your busy schedule to read my blog.

2. I just found all my comments from my blog entry. Not sure why, but it wasn't telling me that I had any before. I read some really positive comments, and some not so positive. That's okay though. :) I understand that by putting my actual thoughts online and not holding anything back, I am going to get some negative feedback.

3. I'm not sure if I have mentioned this before, but I started writing a book about six years ago and it is now completed except for the editing. I am going to take several hours out of the next couple weeks to complete this editing. Then, after that, it will be time to look for publishers!

4.Subscribe!!

<3 Always,
Polina

Totally Embarrassed!

So as I mentioned in yesterday's blog, last night was fetish night at Rocky. It seemed like it was going to be a great day, especially since I looked totally awesome in the outfit I was wearing...but then it happened. I got on stage to do the dance, and was so thrown off that I ended up thinking we were WAY ahead when we obviously weren't. I ended up screwing up the dance completely, and then messing up someone else with me. :( Anyways, I was so upset about the dance, I had a hard time getting into character with Janet. I didn't do bad with Janet, but I didn't do it perfectly.

I know I shouldn't keep myself down about this. You win some, you lose some. This just means that I need to work my butt off for next week's show. I have Dragon Con practice tomorrow, so hopefully that goes well. I am a little nervous about it.

That is all for today's entry. I am off to a Rocky gathering at the director's home. Please subscribe to my blog. I believe the button to do so is in the top left hand corner.

<3 Always,
Polina

Jar of Hearts

WOAH! Two blog posts in one day?! Where is this world coming to!? Ha!

Anyways, I emailed a couple other people now...still waiting for a response of course.

I wanted to mention that I saw the singer of Jar of Hearts on the season premier of LA Ink, and it talked about her struggle to become a singer. Basically what happened was they ended up using one of her songs on So You Think You Can Dance and she became an over night sensation after that!! She didn't even have a record deal until the next day! I kinda got to thinking, she got help from famous people, maybe me trying to do the same isn't so bad after all? I mean, didn't all famous people become famous because of someone else famous? It could be their parents, agents, producers, friends, anyone! To get into the light, you must be introduced into the light. At least that's the way I see it. So from now on, I'm opening my Jar of Hearts.

<3 always,
Polina