I Feel Like Time is Slipping Through My Fingers

April is right around the corner and that will be the end of this blog...365 days...already. I have contacted so many people in the media asking for their help in making my dream come true, but no one has responded.

Yesterday my fibromyalgia was flaring up really badly. It came to my mind, what if I end up walking with a cane by the time I'm 40 years old? Sometimes I walk with a limp, on my bad days.

My time is so limited. Sure I am only 21 years old, but am I really? Sometimes I feel so much older!! With all the doctor appointments that I have had, the pain, the limping...HOW OLD AM I?! Is it stupid to say that I find it really hard to believe that I will live a long time? I cant really see my life past 40. I feel like I am 80 years old... so another 19 years seems about right...right?