The Post Dragon*Con Blues

Day 34

Hello everyone!Well, this last weekend was quite an event! Our Friday show went well, my brother Boris and his girlfriend came and sat in the front row. That made me quite happy. To me, my brother is like the most popular guy everywhere he goes..I was back stage peaking through the curtain and I could see him talking to the whole row behind him, sharing the glow sticks he bought. Everyone seemed to really like him. Is it weird to say that I always wished to be like my brother? I invite him places because I know people will be like, "Oh man, your brother is awesome, you should bring him around more often!" Chances are, if I will bringing him along...wouldn't that kinda make me cool too?

On Saturday, our show began a little late...well, a lot late. We went on around 3:00am and didn't finish until 5:10am. I was exhausted. Spencer and I practically ran to our hotel room afterwards to go to sleep. Boy did I sleep well! Only problem...Spencer woke up bright and early starving for food. We of course got up, and went to the Con Suite where they offer free food. While we were there, we ran into someone I met at our table the day before. She was pretty cool, she kinda looked like Drew Barrymore. Anyways, she told me that she came to the show and really enjoyed it. Before I forget to mention this...some guy who was pretty drunk decided to jump onto our stage during the show, and hide on top of our "Dinner table" for one of our scenes. We kinda played it off. In fact, we played it off so well that this girl had no idea that it was some random guy! Yes, that was my random fact for this blog!

Now, Sunday was probably the best day out of them all. Even though the weather changed for the worse and began to rain and was pretty chilly, we got to hang out with some pretty cool people. We hung out with a guy named Nate, we met him once before at a Celldweller concert. Then at night we met up with a now good friend of mine, Amber. We all hung out in our hotel room, just hanging out and having a good time. We all got pretty close, and kinda talked about life and how interesting and yet really messed up it is. It was a lot of fun!

Moving on...I have of course saved the best for last!! I went to a Back to the Future panel, and got to see the real live actor that played Doc Brown!!! It was absolutely amazing! My father had shown me that movie for the first time when I was just a little kid, so I have seen that movie so many times before and it was kinda like, "Wow, this is a guy from the movies. This is a guy that has been through what I am going through. This guy, made a name for himself." I couldn't even tell you how badly I wanted to go up to the mic during Q&A and tell him that I am a struggling actress and wanted advice/help in any way. Of course I didn't. Even though I think this blog is a great idea and I am praying that someone important will read it...I can't help but think that I am stupid for this whole thing. How many of my dreams must break before I quit trying?

To end this kidna all over the place entry..I am really bummed that the weekend is over. I miss all the great people I was able to hang out with, and I really miss being on stage in front of a sold out crowd. Who knows, maybe more applause will come again in my future?

Dragon*Con = 4,000 People

Day 28

Like the photo? It's my Miley Cyrus "Can't Be Tamed" costume from last years Dragon*Con. Sorry about the messy room! Things get pretty hectic around Con!

So for those of you that follow my blog, you know that this weekend is Dragon*Con and I am going to be performing for around 3,000 - 4,000 people. YIKES! Even though I am not nervous at this point, I am certain that I will be at some point. I am so excited! I have spent all day today making arrangements for this event. I bought body paint, food, iron on letting for some kick ass LDOD underwear that I've put together, and a whole bunch of stuff that I am quite certain will make this weekend a great deal of fun. I am getting dropped off at the Westin Hotel tomorrow around 3:00pm and then not doing much until 5:00pm. At five, I am working the Lips Down on Dixie Dragon*Con table. I believe it is located in the Marriott. You guys should come say hello! I'll be there until around 7:00pm.

Then, later around 10:00pm, it is off to the Amazing Plaza Theare where I will be doing the usual Friday show. Then, because my boyfriend is SO excited for Con, it looks like we will be going out around 3:00am (after our show) and hanging out with some people, maybe see if there is still an event going on. (There usually is!)

Saturday is probably going to be nothing shy of crazy. First the most important thing. Sleeping in. Even though Con is so exciting, the most excitement happens at night, therefore, sleeping in is okay. Then, roam around for several hours and hang out with people until 10:00pm. This is when the LDOD cast will be put in our "VIP dressing room" and we will start getting ready for our big show. This is the part that I am REALLY not looking forward to. Most of you don't know this, but I have a HUGE tattoo on my back. (it's the serenity prayer) I learned it while I stayed at Ridgeview. We said it everyday, and at all the meetings, so it means quite a bit to me. Therefore, it is my tattooed on me. :) I've actually had a couple people walk up to me and say, "You know, I've been having a really bad day today and then I looked up and saw your tattoo. Now I feel so much better!" It turns out they were in some sort of recovery as well. ANYWAYS, my point is that I have to get that whole tattoo covered up. I spent almost two hours with a wonderful lady at Macy's Perimeter Mall trying to get my other very small tattoo covered up perfectly, but sadly it takes a lot of time and nothing matches my skin right. Regardless of how kinda off it looks, I spent about $73 on all the tattoo cover up, and am dreading putting it on.

At 1:30am our big show begins! I hope to see you all there! Get there early...very early. Usually people begin to line up 2 hours in advance. The line usually goes out the hotel and wraps around twice...or something like that. At the end of the show, the lights will come on and everyone will be allowed to leave. Hopefully some of you that are reading this will actually be coming and will be able to take some time out of your night to stop by the stage and say hello before you leave. Trust me, I will be waiting with my fingers crossed! So that's what's happening on Saturday.

Sunday is a pretty chill day. We are going to party hard and have a lot of fun. I will be working again at the LDOD table somewhere between 4-7...I'm not certain of the exact time. If you go up to the table, you can always ask the person working when I come on. Later that night there is some sort of Dragon*Con rave which I plan on attending. Hopefully it is a lot of fun. I love dubstep music and would love to get my dance on.
So that is this weekend in a nut shell. Hopefully I can get some pictures up, emphasis on the hopefully. See you all soon!!

<3 Always,
Polina aka Angel

Maybe dreams DO come true?

Day 20

Today quite possibly may be one of the best days of my life. While at work today, I had the privilege of serving two wonderful men from a news station. When I finally got the courage, I decided to fight for what I believe in and asked them about their opinion about my blog and my fight against bullying. I told them about how I would love to one day be famous and still help out people that are having issues with bullying and depression. After some back and forth talking, they actually seemed interested in what I was telling them about! They asked for my contact information and my blog info and said that they would talk to some other people about it.

I was so excited I ran to the back of the restaurant where a coworker of mine came up to me. I told her that I was so happy and began to cry tears of joy. I have been working so hard to find someone interested in my story, and I am praying so hard that this will be my big break. I really hope they don't forget, and call me soon. My phone won't be leaving my side any time soon!!

In other news, I have decided to share stories of my being bullied days. I figure, this way you guys could get a better understanding about what I have gone through and maybe we could connect on a greater level? I will leave a story quite often, these stories may be brutal, or they can be just minor bullying stories. Regardless of the type of the story, it is important to remember that no type of bullying is okay. Have you ever been told the story about the bullied banana? Here is how it goes. Imagine a banana as a person. Each time the banana gets bullied, you prick it with a needle. The more times you poke it with a needle, you will see that the banana still looks the same on the outside. However, if you peel the banana, you will see that the banana has begun bruising where it has been poked. Get the analogy? Just because you hurt someone on the inside, doesn't mean that you will see it on the outside. Be careful...before it's too late.

Here is my first story. It happened my senior year while I was attending Dunwoody High School. I was in my art class working on my project. I overheard a story someone was telling and I began to laugh. Then someone in the class screamed out, "Oh my god, Polina just laughed!!" I was so confused and I responded with, "What are you talking about, I laugh all the time." Eventually they started making fun about the fact that I was so depressed and being around me was like watching a car accident happen. I was so embarrased because everyone could hear this, so my first reaction was to bring in the teacher to the conversation because she was listening. "Do you think I am depressed?" I asked her hoping that she would prove everyone wrong in the class. "Well, obviously!" She replied as she laughed and walked away. I was stunned. I sank into my seat and kept to myself for the rest of the period. Could no one really see the damage that they have caused? It has been two years since this event, and I still think about it almost every day. I wish someone had stood up for me. I wish someone had taken me aside and asked me if I was okay, or if I needed someone to talk to. But no one did.

This is a bullying story, but it also has a lot to do with my depression from the past. I think it is a very important story to share because it shows how people really need to help others out. If you see someone is being bullied, or seems really down, why not ask them if they are ok? Why is popularity more important than someone's life?

On a final note, if you guys are in the Atlanta area on Friday night, come check me out at The Plaza Theatre Performing with the fantastic LDOD cast. We will show you The Rocky Horror Picture Show in a way you will never forget! I will be your Janet!! Hope to see you all there!!

<3 Always,
Polina (Angel)

Am I on MTV's Made???

Day Five

Well, things were a little crazy yesterday. As usual, I went to work in the morning. I got a really mean customer, so my day there wasn't all that great. When I got home my boyfriend and I went to Phipps mall so I could buy a dress for his cousin's wedding. After that, to Sally's Beauty Supply we went to buy hair color. I knew this day was coming up because I promised that I would color my hair so that way if any of it came out of the wig during Dragon Con, it wouldn't matter because my dirty blonde hair now matches the wig color! I've never been a dirty blonde before. I kinda like it!

So last night I had a bit of a weird acting dream. In my dream I was at the store with my boyfriend when we noticed that we were in front of a girl in line who was filming for MTV's Made. I then started moving around to ensure that I was in the camera's view. Eventually, I even fake fainted. As the dream went on, we walked around the store with the girl. She was very friendly and loved the camera as much as I did. Towards the end of the dream, I noticed that my boyfriend was sitting outside looking sad. When I went to confront him, he said everything was fine. We then noticed something coming from the sky straight for us. As we ran into the store we were pushed to the ground from some sort of force caused by what fell from the sky. I woke up shortly after my boyfriend and I scooted towards the back wall of the store and started holding each other as the worry took over.

The being on Made was kinda cool, but the probably dying part not so much. I wonder if this dream means anything?

Twittered Out

Day 3

Oh my goodness!! The last 2 days have been absolutely insane Twitter wise!I have been all over Twitter doing everything that I possibly could to bring out the word about my blog. Who would have known that it would take that much work to find people to talk about it with?

Anyways, I have decided to take the day off from Twitter today. I need a break. Not to mention, I just got home from Dragon Con practice and I am so tired! It went REALLY well though! I did everything that I was supposed to and I'm finally starting to feel like I deserve the part. I was doubting myself for a little while because I am so new to the part, and there were other people auditioning for the same part that have been doing it for a while now. I'm glad things are going well! :)

Until tomorrow!

<3 Always,
Polina

Melissa Carter from my favorite radio show The Bert Show!!

Day 2

Okay, so every since I was a little girl, on my way to school, or work, or anywhere I would go in the morning, I would listen to The Bert Show on Q100 radio station. I sent out some messages on Twitter mentioning my blog last night, and Melissa Carter from The Bert Show commented on it saying, "Congrats on your gig at @DragonCon!" OMG!! You have no idea about how my heart had dropped that she had gone to my blog, read a little, and even took some time out of her busy day to message me back. I'm starting to think this whole messaging people on Twitter thing was a good idea, because I had 68 views on my blog JUST THIS MORNING! It's only 12:19pm! Can you see the excitement? Boy how I hope that this is just the beginning!!

In other news in the Polina world, I had a blast playing Janet last night. I guess all of those Dragon Con rehearsals have been paying off. When I performed the floor show scene, the director and assistant director almost jumped right out of their seats! Actually, they might have jumped out of their seats. I could hear them yelling with excitement while I was on the stage. It felt great. It really did!!

I guess that is all for today. Please subscribe!

<3 Always,
Polina Milter

Lets start from day 1.

As mentioned much earlier, I have decided to start again on my Journey to Fame. We will start again from today's date. August 5, 2011. Fingers crossed that things go well. Here is a recap for those of you just joining us.


My name is Polina, some people call me Angel.

When I was younger I was bullied. I was bullied so much that I cried all the time in the bathroom at school. Honestly, sometimes it even felt like my teachers were bullying me. As I transitioned into high school I realized that I had no friends. I missed a lot of school, and when I was at school I spent my time alone. I would constantly look up at the clock waiting for class to be over. I spent most school lunches in the library. I didn't see the point of being in the cafeteria alone. Not being able to eat in the library, the amount of times I ate a day slowly decreased. I didn't care. I didn't want to eat. Not to mention, I could look like a cheerleader if I lost some weight! Maybe then I would look hot like them and they would let me on the squad! Sometimes I would be crying and debating on eating lunch in the bathroom...no one could see me crying in a bathroom stall.

I graduated high school in 2009 and moved onto college. It was around this time that I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. A cronic pain disease which turned my life around. Now not only was I depressed because I was alone, but now I was depressed from the pain!The one friend that I did have moved away to St. Louis. On September 17, 2009 I took thirteen sleeping pills in attempt to end my life. What was the point of living life if there was no one there with me? Luckily I began to think of the two kittens I had just adopted and my family. I couldn't put them through my death. I was rushed to the hospital and then sent to Ridgeview Institute.

While in Ridgeview I decided to make a name for myself. To end bullying and to do what I want to do. I want to be on the big screen. I want to end bullying by telling my story. People listen to celebrities. I'd even love to travel to schools and tell them my story! Not to mention, I am FANTASTIC in front of a camera! I can act really well! I want to show people that they aren't alone, and if I can make it through bullying, so can they. Today I attend school at Georgia Perimeter College and I finally have friends!

To conclude, bullying doesn't have to affect everyone as hard as it did me. I started a blog. www.polinamilter.blogspot.com called Journey to Fame. When I left Ridgeview I knew I had to make something of myself. Reach my dreams. Why do I have to settle for less when I know I am worth so much more? I want my dream to come true. I want my name in lights and helping people along the way. My life is an open book, and I need you to help me a long the way.

365 days. That is all that I have. 365 to make it on TV or Movies, or anything of the sort.

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Polina Milter