Lets start from day 1.

As mentioned much earlier, I have decided to start again on my Journey to Fame. We will start again from today's date. August 5, 2011. Fingers crossed that things go well. Here is a recap for those of you just joining us.


My name is Polina, some people call me Angel.

When I was younger I was bullied. I was bullied so much that I cried all the time in the bathroom at school. Honestly, sometimes it even felt like my teachers were bullying me. As I transitioned into high school I realized that I had no friends. I missed a lot of school, and when I was at school I spent my time alone. I would constantly look up at the clock waiting for class to be over. I spent most school lunches in the library. I didn't see the point of being in the cafeteria alone. Not being able to eat in the library, the amount of times I ate a day slowly decreased. I didn't care. I didn't want to eat. Not to mention, I could look like a cheerleader if I lost some weight! Maybe then I would look hot like them and they would let me on the squad! Sometimes I would be crying and debating on eating lunch in the bathroom...no one could see me crying in a bathroom stall.

I graduated high school in 2009 and moved onto college. It was around this time that I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. A cronic pain disease which turned my life around. Now not only was I depressed because I was alone, but now I was depressed from the pain!The one friend that I did have moved away to St. Louis. On September 17, 2009 I took thirteen sleeping pills in attempt to end my life. What was the point of living life if there was no one there with me? Luckily I began to think of the two kittens I had just adopted and my family. I couldn't put them through my death. I was rushed to the hospital and then sent to Ridgeview Institute.

While in Ridgeview I decided to make a name for myself. To end bullying and to do what I want to do. I want to be on the big screen. I want to end bullying by telling my story. People listen to celebrities. I'd even love to travel to schools and tell them my story! Not to mention, I am FANTASTIC in front of a camera! I can act really well! I want to show people that they aren't alone, and if I can make it through bullying, so can they. Today I attend school at Georgia Perimeter College and I finally have friends!

To conclude, bullying doesn't have to affect everyone as hard as it did me. I started a blog. www.polinamilter.blogspot.com called Journey to Fame. When I left Ridgeview I knew I had to make something of myself. Reach my dreams. Why do I have to settle for less when I know I am worth so much more? I want my dream to come true. I want my name in lights and helping people along the way. My life is an open book, and I need you to help me a long the way.

365 days. That is all that I have. 365 to make it on TV or Movies, or anything of the sort.

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Polina Milter

From The UK to Russia...

HELLO to all my readers!

I was looking around on blog spot and just saw that I could see where all my readers are. I am glad to see that I have much more than I thought I did.

Now, I know I said just a few moments earlier that I was done writing for today, but I thought of a couple things that I felt needed to be said.

1. Thanks for taking time out of your busy schedule to read my blog.

2. I just found all my comments from my blog entry. Not sure why, but it wasn't telling me that I had any before. I read some really positive comments, and some not so positive. That's okay though. :) I understand that by putting my actual thoughts online and not holding anything back, I am going to get some negative feedback.

3. I'm not sure if I have mentioned this before, but I started writing a book about six years ago and it is now completed except for the editing. I am going to take several hours out of the next couple weeks to complete this editing. Then, after that, it will be time to look for publishers!

4.Subscribe!!

<3 Always,
Polina

Totally Embarrassed!

So as I mentioned in yesterday's blog, last night was fetish night at Rocky. It seemed like it was going to be a great day, especially since I looked totally awesome in the outfit I was wearing...but then it happened. I got on stage to do the dance, and was so thrown off that I ended up thinking we were WAY ahead when we obviously weren't. I ended up screwing up the dance completely, and then messing up someone else with me. :( Anyways, I was so upset about the dance, I had a hard time getting into character with Janet. I didn't do bad with Janet, but I didn't do it perfectly.

I know I shouldn't keep myself down about this. You win some, you lose some. This just means that I need to work my butt off for next week's show. I have Dragon Con practice tomorrow, so hopefully that goes well. I am a little nervous about it.

That is all for today's entry. I am off to a Rocky gathering at the director's home. Please subscribe to my blog. I believe the button to do so is in the top left hand corner.

<3 Always,
Polina

Jar of Hearts

WOAH! Two blog posts in one day?! Where is this world coming to!? Ha!

Anyways, I emailed a couple other people now...still waiting for a response of course.

I wanted to mention that I saw the singer of Jar of Hearts on the season premier of LA Ink, and it talked about her struggle to become a singer. Basically what happened was they ended up using one of her songs on So You Think You Can Dance and she became an over night sensation after that!! She didn't even have a record deal until the next day! I kinda got to thinking, she got help from famous people, maybe me trying to do the same isn't so bad after all? I mean, didn't all famous people become famous because of someone else famous? It could be their parents, agents, producers, friends, anyone! To get into the light, you must be introduced into the light. At least that's the way I see it. So from now on, I'm opening my Jar of Hearts.

<3 always,
Polina

Fetish Night? I think so.

So lets start this blog entry with what I have done to get my name out there. I have started a myspace, www.myspace.com/Journey_to_fame. There is nothing done on it yet, but there will be soon. I now have an iPhone4, so I can take videos and post them on YouTube, but haven't done that yet either. I have also sent out a couple emails to radio stations, and really cool people like Kat Von D. The cool thing about emailing Kat Von D, is if she's not willing to help, maybe she is willing to be pen pals or something? There is always room for hope, right?

Anyways, as usual I mention what I have going on that has to do with acting. As mentioned in my previous blog entry, I am going to be playing Janet for Rocky until mid September. Tonight is Rocky's Fetish Night. It should be a lot of fun. People, including myself, will be dressing up! I will be in a dance number to Madonna's Human Nature at the beginning of the show, and then playing Janet during the show. Should be pretty hectic, but should be a lot fun!

Random thought!! How amazing would it be if Kat Von D read my email and flew in to see the show one night?! Yeah, yeah...like I said before...There is always room for hope.

<3 always,
Polina

I Will Be On A Huge Stage At...

DRAGON CON!!

I have been casted as Janet (Lead female role), for the Dragon Con cast of Lips Down on Dixie! This means that I will be playing every Friday night from July 29-September 10! Not to mention...I will be on stage at Dragon Con! This is a HUGE honor because people from ALL OVER come to Dragon Con and they stop by our show! Last year the line for our show wrapped around the building TWICE!! I was working the selling table for LDOD last year had several people come up to me telling me how excited for the show they were and that they had been to the Dragon Con LDOD performance every time they came to Dragon Con. I am so excited to be a part of this. :)

I wanted to take some time and thank you guys for writing me the other day. I am not 100% certain if it was one person, or two. The letters had similar stories, but regardless it made me really happy to know that SOMEONE was actually reading this. It is a BIG world out there, and because of you I don't feel so little in it. I wish you the best of luck with your blog and hope to have you as a reader that always comes back.

Until next time,
<3 Always,
Polina

Shower Talk

Hello wonderful world of blogspot!

Even though I feel as if no one is reading my entries, I still find myself coming back occasionally to update my blog. I was in the shower earlier today and I started thinking about this blog, I knew I had to come back. Things aren't going to well on the fame side of life. I haven't done much acting, unless it is Rocky Horror related. Of course I want to do more movies, but I haven't found any connections like I thought I would. Not to mention, I am obviously not willing to drop out of school to find a movie gig...that would be kinda stupid. On the other hand...if one was offered to me, that would be a different story.

My boyfriend asked me the other day why I don't act anymore. He kinda acted like he thought what I was doing was cool, and now I kinda let him down. Damn, if only things were easier.

THERE IS GOOD NEWS THOUGH!!
I was on the pilot episode of Franklin and Bash! Around 45 minutes in, there is a courtroom scene and the actor Mark Paul is talking to the Jury. Well, there I am right in front. :) !!! You get to see my beautiful face for quite a bit. If only the damn makeup artist didn't put on that bright red lipstick on me right before the director yelled, "ACTION!!!"

I haven't started a YouTube account with this yet, I really think that I should though.

It would be really great if you guys reading this...if there is anyone...would comment or email me. Just so I can have some motivation to keep going. I would love to connect with all of you. To hear what you truly feel about what I am doing. So even if you are not subscribed to my blog...leave a comment!!

If anyone is free tomorrow night and lives in the Atlanta area, I will be playing Janet (lead female role) at Rocky Horror which shows at the Plaza Theatre at Midnight. I hope to see you all there! Make sure that you say hello to me at the end of the show. I will be waiting with the rest of the cast right outside the theatre doors.

<3 Always,
Polina